TETE-A-TETE

[Cvetanova]

It's Saturday.

I'm alone. I've prepared a meal, spent an hour and little bit more, set it up nicely on the table and got a glass of wine. No TV, no PC, no music. Twilight and silance... and me...and 'ME'. Hm...feels crowdy. I can lock the door, isolate myself amongst the walls, but a presence is there, I can not get rid of it. It is in me, it is ME!!! I have no power enough to ignore it or isolate from it...yet. It's a vicious circle. And it is difficult to break its line...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit my perceptions according to my feelings and emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the being 'ME'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be bounded of a sociaty and asked it to accept me instead to set myself free of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get confused and unable to distinguish what's the purpose for all the suffer in certain way I do attract to my existence.

I forgive myself that I have let a certain programme to set me up as the person I think I am.

I forgive myself that I let myself to equalise to the programme built in me and constantly feed and support it, vanishing that way my real-self and not knowing it at all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have beLIEfs, that I thought they are the base of the exsistance and I felt pleasure of having these beLIEfs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself having desires which is a magnet for any feelings and sensations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself mixed up living with existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself perceiving the shelter I live under gives me some safety.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself having a need of knowledge.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself having a need of answers for causes and effects.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself having a will to receive.