WHO WE ARE IS WHAT WE DO

[Bella B.]

In this exercise, we can give ourselves the opportunity to look at our `Multiple Personality Disorder´.

An exercise to exorcise the Multiple Demons/de-mans, wherein we are not Equal and one as Self - not the same always.

A Disorder implies that the Integrity of Self Here is `out of order´.

So we can look at Who we are within different aspects/situations of practical living, taking into consideration that WHO WE ARE IS WHAT WE DO:
Who we are with the System, Who we are at Home, Who we are with Friends, Who we are with Enemies, Who we are with Money, Who we are with Sex, Who we are with the News, Who we are with Animals, Who we are with Breathing - Who we are with Everything in our World - and what do we `decide to do´ in each situation.

This point already open-up the revelation that Self exists within and as Multiple Personality Disorder: Self change according to the environment, the placement of Self, according to the changes in the external Reality etc.
It is also the Revelation of the Actuality of Self-Forgiveness: Self-Forgiveness of and as the Mind vs. Self-Forgiveness actually in fact in the Physical, whereby Self can witness Self change within all aspects of Self´s world.

Consider actual Self-Forgiveness spoken out loud - SOUNDING Self, whereby Self can observe the change/integration/equalization of Self through and as the Words spoken: tonality, flow of words, coherency, pronounciation;
Each Self-Forgiveness must flow as a single sentence, wherein Self can test whether Self stand equal and one with and as that point that is taken-on to forgive, or whether that point as Energy has directive power over Self.

Obviously what we want to accomplish is to Equalize Self Here as Life - and stand - unconditionally. This is practical Equality and Oneness as Self. Equality and Oneness is not Equality and Oneness if it is not practically actually accomplished.

In this, the Physical is the simplest point to sort out Existence as Self / Self as Existence. How much simpler could it be to sort out our Multiple Personality Disorder?


PLEASE SHARE YOUR EXPERIENCES, Self-Forgiveness, AND YOUR ´PROCESS OF EXORCISM´ here.

[Bella B.]

Looking at: Separation towards another human being as Self.
I picked this point as I saw myself not being the same towards animals and humans.

I observed how with animals I allow myself to be more open, more vulnerable, trusting Self, being gentle yet also directive/assertive; Not so with humans.
I see this separation also in between my writing and my speaking expression and lived participation. I am in the process of becoming equal to myself as the written word actually, physically, in fact: in my spoken word and actions = to be the living word as who I am of Life.

When I look at the why: it has been fear; fear of people - which of course in the end is fear of Self.
When I look at my life I see that I have only been able to be self-honest and direct with very few people which I considered `special´ to me - `special friends´.

I had not known of Self-trust - and thus I had `experienced´ trust as something separate from me, something that is only in relation to another. I had not known of Self-expression - and thus I had `experienced´ expression only in relation to another.

By doing so, Self-trust did not exist, Self-expression did not exist as me. Trust and expression would vary according to who I was with and what my relationship to that person was.

By only having the few `special friends´ I had - whom I often wouldn´t see for long time - I spent much time alone and developed a different personality/state of being when alone compared to when with other people.

With the time, breath by breath, I manifested like a protection-wall around me: `my space´. This is a construct I have existed as and only recently became aware of - and I will be writing about it as I de-construct and Self-forgive.


I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to fear another as me.

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to fear judgment/rejection/abandonment by another as me.

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to judge/reject/abandon myself as Life.

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from Life.

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from me Here.

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from what was Here as me.



Looking at `special friends´/`Friendship´:
See my previous Post: "My experience with Friendship"

[Dimitri Halley]

Hi Bella,

The process I use comes quite close to some of desteni's process. For instance at the core of what I do is self-deception. And thus of course the main goal of the therapy-process I use is describable as a process of becoming honest with oneself. The difference is that in my experience people are often unaware of the things they really should become honest to themselves about. in my experience mostly what people become self-honest about is really just the top of the ice-berg. The conscious mind can really play tricks on itself and make quite a fool out of itself. those areas, which become the basis for multiple identity problems are hermetically concealed to the conscious. it is therefore that I say that the main thing is to get into the deeper unconscious layers of the psyche which the conscious mind by its very nature can't. it is these unconscious contents which we press deeply out of the reach of the conscious levels of the mind which become and partake in the problem of multiple identity. I also prefer to speak of multiple identities for they are all part of the same one personality (but that's just a matter of choice). I often apply dreams and other ways of getting into the unconscious, as a source of material which can confirm whether we have been trully self-honest. anyways this gives somewhat of a feel of how I work with this problem in my practice and why it's much harder than we think to get really self-honest about the things that really matter...

anyway, great topic